| So I break my own disciplinary measures to write this. It is 1:45 AM in the morning, and I have no intentions of sleeping within the next hour.
I think today was just about the most amazing day I've had in a while. I definitely felt God was somehow holding me up through today's events, and in the end, He has made today more than perfect :)
The rest of this is just detail and you really don't have to read it.
I spent the last two days hermiting in my room, studying for my 9AM exam this morning. Usually, I don't hardcore study like this for anything, except that Astronomy is the one class I seem to fail in no matter what I do. Not to mention I wasn't very happy with my professor because of the way he handled things in the last week. Briefly summarizing, my professor overslept class last Wednesday; sent out an email saying we should read chapter 21 on our own and be prepared for a quiz Friday to make sure we do so; first says chapter 22 WILL NOT be on the exam; changes it and adds chapter 22 material onto the exam; doesn't lecture over chapter 22 because he knows there is no time; and sets us off.
A formula for failure, yes? Leaving college kids to be responsible and study on their own...mm...not good. So I actually motivated myself to read the freaking book and go over the slides and lecture notes. Well, after the exam today, I walked out feeling okay about the test. I figured I'd pass and score around what I usually did.
My afternoon started with two one-on-ones with two amazing girls. (I'm going to start typing 1O1s from now on) For those of you who don't know, or have yet to discover, I love having 1O1s. Just sitting and talking or eating with someone while talking aimlessly about anything and everything would totally make my day.
After that, I rented a movie from Jester lobby and came back to my room just to unwind and relax. I told myself I wouldn't touch anything school related for 12 hours after these last two days of hardcore concentration
While watching the movie, I was half checking grades to see if they had been posted from this morning's exam. About halfway though, I noticed I received an email from my professor. He was talking about how abysmal our grades were and going over test questions we struggled most with. I must've refreshed eGradebook at least three times before the grades were actually posted.
And then the day just sank. With one number. I don't think I've ever scored so low on anything AFTER the curve. A part of me didn't even want to finish the movie because I was so heartbroken that my two days of studying were for nothing.
So I had a slight breakdown for about 15 minutes, and then I made peace with the fact that college is not about GPA, and I could care less about how well I do, but moreso what kind of person I am in college, and how I'm growing in my faith with God. I would never sacrifice my values for school, and the time I have done so, well, I learned a greater lesson.
So I finished the rest of the movie, and somehow got through the rest of my afternoon...leading up to dinner and the longest, but coolest 1O1 I've ever had :)
AACMapella was a little difficult because singing made my throat itch which made me want to cough. Singing so much is not good when you're recovering from cold symptoms. But hopefully getting sick this early before Great Banquet means I won't get sick in the next two weeks :)
And then I decided to go to the gym and play volleyball at 11:45 PM. Usually, I wouldn't have made a decision to do something like that, but tonight...I did. And volleyball was really cool, although I'm kind of terrible at it, but I have a lot of fun playing. So I stayed at the gym until 1AM when they closed and the lady kicked us out, haha.
So I ended my day on a pretty good note...despite a few downsides...
BUT IT GETS BETTER :D
After finishing shower #2, I get back on my laptop, and find a second email from my professor saying that the scores were inputted wrong, so it turns out that the score which was in eGradebook was actually the UNCURVED ONE :) So my real grade is a lot higher than the one which was recorded. Yayyy. God is good :)
And so it is now 2:10 AM , not to mention I've been awake since 7:00 AM yesterday which means that my day has officially hit a duration of 19 hours. And I have class tomorrow morning at 9:30 AM and I will really regret staying up this late in about 6 hours xD
But that's okay, because I'm in a very good mood right now. And despite all the turmoil and crap going on in my life, I somehow feel this really cool joy :)
...and this is how I want to feel, the rest of my life.
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